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I am content for the most part, probably enjoy being alone too much. Love my full time job.

What I am having the most difficulty with and it still makes me angry after my 2017 divorce, after 35 years married, is aging alone. I have wonderful local friends and three great adult children who are not local, but not having that one person to be there if I become ill and unable to make that emergency call, or the one person who will stay at the hospital for days on end, be a second set of ears if I get a terrible diagnosis and shut down while the Dr is still talking.
I committed to aging together and didnt have a choice in aging alone.
These are the things I think about at 67 years old....alone.

Hi,
I deal with it because it's all I have. I have never actually moved out of home or have had roommates. I've never lived with a romantic partner. I have been living alone ever since my parents passed away from each of their health problems at older age. At first I admit I felt relief at not having to be the full-time caretaker anymore. I missed my parents but also needed a break. After that, I spent many years grieving losses, my parents but also grieving the life I never got to have. I grieved the lost opportunity to get married while my father was still alive and anke to walk me down the aisle. He was there for my younger brother's wedding but was never there for mine because I never married. I aleo greatly mourned the lost opportunity at motherhood, kids, and pregnancy. It was hard to face these losses all alone. But I had no other option. So I made do. In the beginning I focused a lot on jogging, swimming at the gym pool, dance music, and tv shows. Now it's all I know, living alone that is, and now that I'm post menopausal, I actually have learned to appreciate my alone time and not having to cater to others.